The problem is that you're talking about God like he's not a fictional character and a figment of people's imagination and mass hallucination. It's like going to a Harry Potter club, and the fans there try to convince you that Harry Potter is real. It's gaslighting.

Yes, I understand that born-again fundamentalists (Bible idolaters) distinguish between personal connections and religion. That's the pressure tactic which cults rely on too. That's how these cultists convert outsiders, by getting under their skin, searching for personal weaknesses, and pressuring them with a salesman's pressure tactics.

It's a con, a fraud, a scam. But that's what you have to resort to to sell your cultish faith because the progress of modernity has emasculated Christianity.