Philosophizing like this can certainly be disheartening. A reader urged me to address this problem head-on, so I wrote the first article linked below.

There's also much tension between not wanting to dumb down your art, and wanting to reach a wider audience. I've addressed that tension in my writings too.

https://medium.com/the-philosophers-stone/how-pessimists-should-avoid-despair-9421374c0209?sk=2883a2944eb0cee1b45e1d9c093ae1bf

https://medium.com/the-innovation/should-writers-want-huge-audiences-609dbf4edeb7?sk=46197898a43cc799e5fe27e7387c8d7c