If the challenge is to guess what your philosophy of life is, I see that you compose Christian poetry and are interested in Orthodox Christianity and Eastern religions. Mysticism could be mistaken for nihilism, although I've argued the mystic may be confused about that alleged mistake.

Did I mention that I dabble in poetry? Not sure if this link will show up: https://allpoetry.com/poem/14764089-The-Little-Climber-on-the-Mountain-by-Grim-Bard